"I hope I don't kick myself in the head falling head over heels"

It might have been good to think of the consequences before getting myself into this whole online dating game. Because, you know, these profiles on my screen actually represent real people. People have feelings.

Then again, I didn't really expect anyone to get those sort of feelings for me. But the internet is a whole different ballgame. While my profile is honest and what I consider true to character, it's still not me. So it's bound to attract different sorts of people in different sorts of ways. (Oh, and if you were wondering I didn't only put up photos where I look way more attractive then real life...just as my main photo :P).

What it boils down to is that, for the first time in my journalistic history, I'm having ethical second thoughts. I basically feel like I'm exploiting these people by talking about them, especially when I don't really have intentions towards anything relationshippy. I mean, I'm open to all sorts of possibilities, don't get me wrong, but I don't know what to do when someone says to me "I hope I don't kick myself in the head falling head over heels." Eep! For one, I couldn't fall for someone over the internet. I'm a real world sort of girl. And for two, I am the last person that it would be a good idea to fall head over heels for! I mean, just don't do it. It's bad news bears. I don't handle myself well in relationships and that's all there is to it. My intentions with this online dating gig were to maybe meet some new people, get to know them, and then see what springs forth...slowly.

I also don't do well with compliments, especially the corny kind. I usually deflect them in some awkward way, such as the following IM conversation:

Him: I think my heart just fluttered. :)

Me: i think its affecting my internet

Me: that seems to be fluttering too

Me: in and out of service!

Did I ever feel like a biiitch. I guess I should have been prepared to handle these scenarios.

On a slightly more humourous note, in case you were worried this entire post was going to be my depressing lamentation on my unethical treatment of humanity, I joined Plenty of Fish just to, you know, compare and contrast (I will have indepth reviews of the different dating sites later, I promise!). It seems there are a lot of couples in Victoria on there that are looking for *ahem* a playmate? I've already been contacted by one actually, and while she hasn't specifically mentioned her boyfriend, it's obvious from her profile what they're looking for. And while she's pretty cute, he's early 30's and so not my type. I was amused though, how many people are looking for this menage-a-trois sort of scenario. It's really not my scene, but power to them. I wonder if I can get around the boyfriend and just meet up with her...they do live together.

That's besides the point. If you're a girl who feels like getting frisky with a couple, go check out plentyoffish.com. There are couples out there in al shapes, sizes and flavours looking for girls like you ;-)

Maybe people in "polyamourous" relationships (there are TONS of those out there) are the best way to go. Because they aren't lonely, and aren't looking to get emotionally attached to you. It's ironicaly simple, considering the complications most people would associate with "polyamourous" long-term relationships. They can deal with the complications. I really would love it if, on my end, things were simple. Good luck, right?